hmm i havent really been able to draw recently at all its kinda bugging me. idk im just going through a period of time where anything i try to draw is terrible and i have no motivation to draw anything anyways really. hmm gosh so much work to do and im just continuing to procrastinate on it all. i have a bad cough too bluh my throat. im coughing so much my stomach hurts ahh i also need to call petco to see if they will shave my cat/how much it will cost. ahh im kinda excited for clinics but also kinda not. im not as excited as i was a while ago but still a little bit i suppose. im worried about recitals sabre dance is still not really all fitting together for me. idk i suppose thats kinda it for now.

o but i also really want a dog. idk ive just been like craving a dog lately. i neeed a dog. and it needs to be a shiba inu. all the love for shiba inus. 

sucked. but i dont really regret going.

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I hate having to rely on other people to take care of me. but i feel like i must. i dont know how to be happy on my own. 

who knew it was so dark at 8 30 in my house o: i woke up from my long nap after school and its like dark in my room it was like it was the middle of the night. which would be ok usually i move around the house in the middle of the night sometimes but idk then i notice my door is open, which means its dark in the rest of my house too and im just like is this for reals and im thinking like wow everyone is asleep already? and so i get off my floor and look through the house and no one is here o: and im like what the heck cause usually if my mom leaves me she would tell me she is leaving like wake me up and stuff. but no. then, i look in the garage. her car is there but my dads is not. so i figure well maybe he came home and took her somewhere. but usually my dad wakes me when he gets home. but idk i think well maybe he didnt this time. so i go back to my room all dark and alone and stuff. and im just like ok so my mom and dad are out somewhere and my sister idk no one cares shes gone all the time. but then. i realized. if my mom and dad went out somewhere they wouldnt have taken my dads car. like ever like they never would my moms car is so much better. so im like what the heck. so my dad probably never came home from work and i have no clue what happened to my mom o: 

DOLAN STRIKES AGAIN. LET HIM LOVE YOU. 

LOL. Okay well I’m not @catniip, I’m her moirail @brown-rice and I fixed her layout for her because I was bored and whatever. It was so plain and IDK. I like the colour scheme now and how it turned out :3 It’s like your bedroom walls ahahah.

Anyway, Hope you like it Amanda. I will now proceed to nap. Go nuts~

so not happy for school again bluh. i do not want to work and i have to do that stupid officer application which i really dont want to. its just so sucky. and i am like unable to eat much without getting sick so i kinda just starved myself during school after i got sick in third period. i think it might be partially or probably mostly due to nerves and stress and such but idk i seem to be ok tonight so maybe it will just go away. hopefully. 

i celebrated Easter like i usually do today, i just went with my family to some friends of ours house where they were having a party and we ate and hid eggs for the littler kids quite nice. lol there was some guy there who looked just like Adam Levine and i was just like yes ahha idk who he was he was never there before. it was a bit boring as all the parents had their conversations about whatever i mean i was in some of them but idk bluh at least i got cake that was nice i actually felt like eating for once. we made Sean eat an egg since his family apparently just paints eggs and then throws them out cause the paint “poisoned” them :p ahh idk it was a nice day but kinda stressed about going to school again :/